Overwhelmed by visits to the funeral home?

Three funeral home visits this week - 1) very cold, sad, and even demonic; 2) the utterance of cheerful memories of a loving and special soul; and the 3) too overwhelmed to make it to the service but happy for them because they were able to live a second type of life in recovery and die in recovery. When emotions about death affect me like this there is something unsettling present in my life. Any suggestions? Want to share? Please do......